Just About Me

Mariela Marin                                                                                                        Journal #1

Just About Me

     From my eighteen years living in this world, I have obviously noticed many negatives things I have that makes me, me. From all the ten mechanisms, I have two of them that I use the most. One of them is Reaction Formation. I would say I am very sarcastic in my life. Most of the times I act as if I am so happy when deep down, I feel like if I am dying. This is because life has many obstacles that sometimes are hard or impossible to go through. The other one is Sublimation, I always look at what society thinks first then I do it just to please them and not myself. For example, I never go out at parties or stuff like that because I was grown that descent girls should stay at home but the reality is that it is annoying to do it for others and not for ourselves. One of the mechanisms I would want to use a little bit more is Suppression. This is because I find it hard to forget things that keep bothering me day by day. An example of it is that I always tend remember all the problems that I have at home and to make it worse, my past boyfriend. I want to implement that in my life in order for me to move on and be successful in life.

     For the Neurotic Needs, I have many things to say. I would say that I use the Neurotic Need for affection and approval. This is because I am the kind of person that is always there for my friends and I want them to be there for me so that they can cheer me up just like I cheer them up when they are feeling down. Another thing is that when I am in a relationship, I am convinced that it is puppy love but somehow I feel like if when I am not with my boyfriend I am incomplete, so down and lonely. It is something hard to explain.  Another one that I apply a lot in my life is the Neurotic need to restrict one’s life within narrow borders. I am not like the other type of girls that live for fashion and material stuff. I don’t ask for non of those things, I am satisfied to wake up every morning and making our short life the best and not focusing in what others are dying for. For example, shopping and having a touch screen phone. I mean, we are valued on what we have inside not outside. One Neurotic Need that I would like to implement more in my life is the Neurotic Need for self-sufficiency and independence. This is because I need to start facing reality, that my friends and family wont be with me forever and I should start seeing thins fro a different perspective where sometimes we have to live for our own selve